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...biLa Aku bOSaN...

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...di mAsA kELapANgAN...

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...mEmbUat tARiaN sAdiS...

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...kuAk LENtaNg di hUjUNg miNggU...

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...tEraSa diRikU ENsEm 24 jAm...

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...kadaNg2 kuAt NaNgiS...

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...wEh kENgkAwAN!!! aKU NaK giTaR!!!...

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...kuAt mAjUk tAu!!!...

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Untitle II

Masih
Kubuka lembaran... lembaran baru
Kutulis nama bernada rindu
Kubicarakan sebuah rasa senandung syahdu
Kuuntaikan kasih merayu-rayu
Hanya pada TUHAN yang satu aku mengadu
Cintaku itu...
Kubuka lagi lembaran... lembaran baru
Kucoretkan ilham tiada berlagu
Kunyanyikan syair pilu, kualunkan mendayu-dayu
Hanya pada TUHAN yang satu aku mengadu...
Cintaku itu...
Masih kubuka lembaran... lembaran baru
Masih kutulis nama bernada rindu
Masih kubicarakan sebuah rasa senandung syahdu
Kuuntaikan kasih merayu
Masih...
Masih kucoret ilham tidak berlagu
Masih kunyanyikan syair nan pilu
Kualunkan mendayu
Masih...
Masih pada TUHAN yang satu aku mengadu
Cintaku itu...

Azilawati Mat Angsar

Selaut Kasih (2003)

i m falling hard....

Hate Me...

I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape, to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
and will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
and will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hands
And then I fell down yelling "make it go away" just make a smile
Come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How could you do this to me?"
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you.